Friday, May 25, 2007
On goodbye, leaving, holding on, letting go and moving on... (Second of a series)Yup, I have a lot more to write, I have been meaning to do this waay before
pa. But I guess I just had the time, and the will to do these things now.
And this one about my SERVICE. Or should I say my sanctuary, which is YFC...again, everything happened in a daze that I'm left staring in my monitor, not knowing where, or how to begin. But heck, nothing will happen if I don't get started. So I guess random thoughts na lang.
Ika nga ni Aimee, "Ang Sa Akin Lang..."GOODBYE and LEAVING. The two are meant to be inseparable. Because if someone leaves without saying goodbye, then maybe something's wrong.
Starting on a high note, let me share with you what I felt was our cluster's thrust for this year. In
Revelations 21:1"Behold I make all things new."I guess this year was just that. A year for change. A year for all those: goodbye, leaving, etc. But with the thought that all of it was because He knows we're ready for change. We're ready to see another page in His plans.
This year, Koko and I took the next step. Not get married, silly. Crossing over to SFC. This year as well, Samboy was called to lead in a higher service, which is in YFC Torch.
Okay, lets start with that. It was kinda weird when he left. Yes, he is great and with that level of spirituality, he's a sure commander of God's army. He's always inspired many of us. That's why David and I were all set to step down because we were confident that he'll take on the work of being the clusterleader. It was just great and we've gotten really comfortable with him that it didn't dawn on us that one day we'd be separated from each other. But I guess,
yun nga, we all had to grow in our service. We treated each other as a barkada, brothers and sisters even, to the point that we had kind gotten so complacent. There just comes a time when I'm already confused if its still service we're doing, or pure fellowship
na lang. So there. We needed to step out of our comfort zones, and Samboy was the one who took the first step.
Eventually, a bunch of us followed. Babe and I moved on to SFC, then he had to leave for work abroad, which was the bigger step, because with that, he really had to leave YFC despite hesitation. Also, a bunch of us "oldies" had to focus on work so we had to give way to the younger ones.
"Behold, I make all things new."Yes, YFC in our cluster is in a new phase. A new generation of great, dedicated leaders. No more complacency but giving everything to the Lord. No more childish cliquishness but unity and solidarity with the sector. They reach out to every member like a friend, brother and sister.
I'm proud of these people. I've seen them grow up and mature. It's true
pala when you see these young kids joining YFC, new members and while you nurture them you think, They are the future of YFC." And they are, indeed. My homegirl Kaye who took my place as cluster leader, and baby Jorgia, they used to just tag-along with us in our meetings. But hey, young as they are, we already saw the potential. Now they're leading the cluster and chapters, from what they learned from the old gen and they continue to take in whatever new lesson, with the guidance of our trusted and supportive couple coordinators of course.
There are also some who first didn't strike us as the type who would take YFC to heart, but emerged to be great leaders as well. Like Jan, who leads the pack now like a true servant. My cousine Maita. E-ats never like the title, but without her noticing, she was already doing the responsibilities. She assumed the leadership no matter how she tried to stay away from it. I'm proud of my girls. And Andy, who stood up for the challenge, despite his feeling of unworthiness and questions in his head. Well, if there's one thing I learned about leading in YFC, it's not about whether you think you're good or not. It's taking the first step and having the guts to answer the call. Because if God has chosen you, it means He believes that you can do it, and you can. And if you're on His side, you don't have to worry coz He is always near. And I'm proud of all you new leaders. Thanks for ensuring us that YFC South A1 is in good hands.
Yes, I still miss YFC and my cluster has been my second home for years. I has sheltered me from the confusion, and loneliness of youth. It's there that I found myself, and the man I love and plan to spend the rest of my life with. The bestest friends, from PFF to my boys, and even couple coordinators. And most of all, it gave me my faith. That keeps me standing despite all the strong winds that come.
But I'm ready to see the world again, but not anymore in the eyes of a youth. Let's face it, we are growing old and I need a different kind of nourishment. And I'm ready to claim all the promises the Lord has for me in the future, as I will be nurtured by another family ministry, SFC.
Besides, YFC was not a dream. It's reality, and with it comes real relationships. So I'm still having the time of my life reaping the benefits up to now. I found my babe, and even though he's away, we're still very much together holding on for our future of forever (that's a different blog entry altogether). I have my former couple coordinators, who became our real friends and trusted advisers (from faith to work to financial matters like investments, the conversation can really get anywhere!). And my solid group of friends. My household. My boys. Partner, manny and pao. and samboy, dondon, boks, and everyone else. They've been with me eversince. YFC may not be forever for us, but you as my most trusted buddies will be with me forever. It's more fun now actually, to see us grow, now with our special someones, with our own money (Pao - manager) hehehe. with maron, randypau, khatz, jinkie, the gang grows bigger and bigger. Thank you Lord for these wonderful blessings.
So it's really not goodbye. Just moving on and smiling while looking back. And from where I see them, I can say that they're headiong somewhere good, kinda towards my direction anyways. :))
another adventure for COSMOGIRL!
