Thursday, February 15, 2007
"Love, love, love..."It's playing in my mind right now...
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game. It's easy.Haha, another one of my cheesy entries, or are all of them cheesy? Sigh!
Like I said, I had my fair share of hearts day experiences, so all I can say for this Valentines is, Cupid got me real bad.
Like I said in my previous entry, I wasn't really expecting for my babe to do something grand for me this Valentines, I mean, he does sweep me off my feet everytime, but something larger than life? Not in this lifetime, I thought. But days before V-day had me really panicking. Knowing that my babe never really goes for outrageous dates, I took the liberty of planning something for that day. And then I told him about it, and he said he just might not be with me on Valentines. He
might have other plans with his family. Emphasis on the might, because there I was, telling him that we have plans, and then he blows all my excitement (yes, because I had planned for us to attend the dinner party my
balikbayan uncle.) by telling me that he
might have
other plans. MIGHT - not yet definite. I just had a fit about it, I mean, its Valentine's day, you're supposed to be with someone you love. Okay okay , of course he loves his family more than me, that's a fact I've accepted with open arms, but it's Valentines daY!! I can take it if he has no grand plans, but no plans at all? I hated it.
So I thought to myself, maybe I am making such a big deal out of it, maybe I'm just overreacting. Because Valentines day, is
just any other, ordinary day. And so I joined my officemates in the "I hate Valentines day!" club, and began ignoring my babe completely when he greets me "advanced Happy Hearts day!" I even managed to drop the line, "What's the occasion anyway?" with a straight face.
Although tumitiklop talaga ko when he says 'i love you', I just melt everytime, and I start feeling so mushy again
. Warning: MUSHY ZONE and LONG BLOGI just lose myself with all the i love yous (
pagbigyan mo na ko, Valentines eh), it's different kasi when you know that he means it, and it's not an i love you
na labas sa ilong, he means it and says it with so much passion, and care. Haaayy...
Yet I managed to act, unaffected with the whole hearts day hulabaloo, convincing myself that I really should stop getting so starry-eyed and mushy all the time. So at Valentines day, we had no plans, none at all. I just told him that I will drop by at his house, something that I usually do so it seemed like it wasnt big a deal (although I would be going to drop my expensive and extensively prepared Valentines gift for him). And although I left work earlier than usual because I knew I would be battling with 'holding hands pa-sway sway pa' couples (not only that, they were holding humongous bouquets of flowers and boxes of cake to block my way) on my way home, I still got caught up in the long line at my service shuttle. It was such a bummer!!! the line was soooper long (remember that supersticks ad? I hate it), and worse, I was sandwiched between two opposite couples. The couple in front of me was in cloud nine, they were so sweet they made me wanna barf. It was just the type that I hate, the "because it's Valentine's day, lets pretend that everythings perfect" type of couple. Hel-lo? There are people around! or am I just jealous because the girl had the perfect bouquet of pink tulips in her hands? and the guy was holding a neat box of cake while my babe mentioned the night before that he wouldn't be giving me flowers, or anything for that matter because he's broke. And then I just thought, what the heck, Valentines is just made up by commercialism anyways. Like businessmen just invented that holiday to sell their flowers, cakes and jewelry. And being the more mature, cynical person that I am, I decided, I'm not gonna buy it anymore. I'm not gonna waste my money on Holland tulips and Tiffany's and Valentine concerts. I've had enough, I thought.
Anyway, the couple behind me were different. The girl was sulking because her boyfriend arrived late. And the guy was all apologies but the woman went on and on with her ranting.
One realization: Nagging is irritating pala talaga. I wanted to strangle her because her boyfriend was making annoyed faces already and she just wouldn't get a clue. Isn't she ashamed that people were overhearing their conversation? Haha, look who's talking
noh? Well, to shed some light to some of you, some girls just have trouble containing their anger, yeah its true.
Ikaw kaya ang maghintay ng matagal sa boyfriend mo when every other couple's in seventh heaven already. Like me, I have to admit,
wala kong pinipiling lugar, when we have to talk, we have to talk. I don't care what other people will say, basta if I need to clear things up with my boyfriend. I will do it at once. But don't get us wrong, we're not warfreakish and scandalous. Our voice is still gentle, but firm. The girl was even pleasant enough to save my slot in the line while I pay for my fare. Anyways, after getting dizzy with the lovers all around the place, it was time to go.
And then one realization hit me again. Just as things settled down inside the van, the girl just stopped nagging, and clasped her boyfriend's hand. Her beau, who took in all the humiliation and swallowed his pride a while ago, just took his girl's head and rested it on his shoulders.
Awwwhh...then all the cynicism vanished and I was back to my lovestruck, hopeless romantic self again.
Who dares question the power of love? it can make you forget all the hurt, all the anger in just a split second. It can take away all the pain, all the doubt, all the negative things and fill your heart with so much happiness and contentment. It can make you wanna fly in an instant. It can turn your life around.
Indeed, love does conquer all. Extreme cheesiness, enough. And I realized, yes, this is what we've been celebrating for decades, centuries even. Valentine's Day wasn't made up by sleazy merchants who want to earn. The power of love is worthy of a holiday! I'm back to loving Valentines again! So when I reached my Babe's house, I was all ready to rejoice, but when I got there, he just got home from buddy-time and basketball, hasn't taken a bath yet, and there were no flowers in sight (yes, there's this assuming part of me that just won't give up), that did it, my mood fell. Clearly, he hasn't prepared for anything. I just got so depressed. He then started to ask me why I looked so sad again, and I didn't want to make it seem like it was a big deal, because I told him days ago that it wasn't therefore I had no right whatsoever to act all upset, so I just told him that I was really tired from commuting. And then this is the part I loved, when he just wrapped his arms around me and started making me feel all right, greeting me happy hearts day, but I was just too disappointed to reciprocate. Then he excused himself to go to the bathroom, while I wallowed in misery, hating myself for being this overly assuming, materialistic person on Valentine's day. So when I was close to tears, burrying myself in his pillow, he took my hand and motioned me to look at him.
And that's when I was overwhelmed with what I saw... Tadaa!!! It was a big basket ('basket' being the operative word meaning it was a big one) full of my favorite flowers. OMG!! I was so surprised, for real this time. Cupid got me really bad! I mean, whirlwind of feelings in one day? C'mon! It was utterly more than I expected. Grabehh!!
So yeah, it pretty much made my day, after that, I was so happy even to just watch a basketball game on TV, and eat a simple dinner. But I'm all good. We hung out for a while (my favorite part of any day, hanging out, chilling with him), talked about my gift ( it was a "commitment contract"
na nag-effort talaga ko, I even got a witness to sign it, good thing he was touched by the gesture) and then since it was getting late, and the flowers he got me were so humongous that commuting was not an option, his dad drove us to my place.
And then we just said our goodnights, happy valentines and kisses on the cheeks. It was so old-school, but I was totally swept away again.Yeah, so that ended my Valentine post (after like, more than a week of writing it, things just come up eh). It was actually very simple but sooo heartfelt. Like I feel his love at every move he does for me, to me. And that's reason enough for me to be merry. Sigh! Oh, if you wanna take a peak at the basket of flowers, and the commitment contract I made for us, check out my multiply site, just type in
http://cosmogirlcams.multiply.com to get a feel of the party that is, my life. Haha, tumagline pa talaga!! Anyway, I'm gonna be posting photos from valentines, and our post-valentines date really soon. And yes, unexpectedly, this song began playing in my mind again...
Love, love, love...Love, love, love...
another adventure for COSMOGIRL!
