Saturday, November 25, 2006
Yes, here I go again... Busy-busyhan?
No, I've been really busy the past few days. Remember when I said that my 'petiks' phase will take its toll on me one day? Well, that day has come. And now I remember when I was complaining to Tito Nelson about the first job that I had, he told me one valuable lesson, "
Hindi talaga nauubos ang trabaho Cams, you just have to find a way na makapagpahinga ka ng maayos para hindi ka masyadong mapagod..." and man, he's soo right.
So here I am now, trying to maximize my time for rest... by blogging? hay... ang labo ko talaga...
RAndom things...which aren't so random to me...yeahyeah, y'all have heard that crap.. anyway, here goes:
*It's weird how time flied so fast today... I just waited all week to spend some quality time with my babe, and when we finally did, it ended in a blast. Bummer lang, it was so
bitin. I went to his house in the morning so that we could hang out and talk, kaya lang I keep getting phone calls from work, nainis talaga ko. I mean, Saturdays are for me, the day when I choose to be with the people I love, the one person I love. Because Sundays are for the people I love most, my family. and Sats are
MINE. But all this engagements at work keep on interfering even on my rest day. Anyways, we ate lunch together, his dad is a great cook by the way. And then we went to the dentist to get his retainers adjusted. Then we hung out at my place naman. But since he has a basketball game at four, he had to leave na rin. And then after he left, his friend just texted me to tell him that the game was cancelled. Awwh... and now I miss him badly again. We fought last night on our way home, and I was crying at the shuttle, it was so embarrassing. But we always patch things up, because as always, at the end of the day, it wouldn't matter who made who upset, and who started the fight. All that matter is that I'll be holding on to him, resting my head on his shoulders, and he never lets me go. Awwh, mushy, cheesy, yes, I am both.
*I always remember my favorite professor, the master-artist-writer Sir Jun Cruz Reyes whenever I want to take my writing seriously. He told me that what he loves about my style is my tongue-in-cheek approach. The ability to make fun of myself, laugh at myself when I made the wrong decisions,
sablay choices, and still have the guts to write about it. I dunno, I'm like that, I know when I shouldn't take myself seriously. But I also remember him telling me that at one point, that style is okay, to endear myself to the readers. But there should come a time, if I really want to be known as a writer, that I detach myself to this kind of writing and take on more serious issues.
"Lumabas ka Camille, hindi sa'yo umiikot ang mundo. Lumabas ka, tingnan mo kung ano ang problema ng karamihan, kung ano ang hinahanapan ng solusyon, at yun ang isulat mo." One learning that I will always bear in mind. From one writer to another. Yes, I know. The world does not revolve around me. It's not all about me.
But in this case, this is my blog, so it's quite about me.
ME. Me wishing I could go back to my college days and pursue writing. Being a hardcore writer, maybe a novelist. Because now, it's a little of writing and a lot of PR-ing. Not that I'm complaining. I love my job. It's just that, I believe I was born to write. About things. About views. About justice. About freedom. About love. About life. Then again, this is ME wishing I could go back to my high school days and make time to join the school paper. But hey, I can't go back. So I guess this is just ME wishing for more time to hone my craft, to write about things that really matter to me, like my 'graphic novel' that I started writing ages ago, stories about youth, family and love. Dreams and faithfulness...
okay Camille, tingin mo sa pagdugtong mo ng words na yun, nagpapakamalalim ka na? No, not really. I just wanna share my passion.
weh, nagpapaka-deep girl ka lang Cams eh.. Why do I always contradict myself?
Ayan tuloy, they're thinking I'm a joke. But hey, if you know me well enough, you'll know which among the things I say is true.
*Oh gosh, I miss being carefree again. I so miss high school. A week ago, I had the chance to hang-out with Kups and Chen again.
Sobrang saya! We were with Chen's boyfriend Alfredo this time, because the bf comes with the package, and are inseparable. But it was still the same threesome. Because I have to admit, Alfred's cool with Chen hanging out with us.
Sumasakay rin siya sa mga kalokohan namin. Eh loko-loko rin kasi siya. Kaya nga jive sila ni Chen eh. At ngayon ko lang na-appreciate yung relationship nila. Plus the fact that we now have a driver and bodyguard (
Hehe, peace Alfred!) Anyways, I just realized I miss all the fun we used to have! And it's so reassuring to know that we haven't changed at all. Okay so now we spend our own money, and we don't confine ourselves to Las Piñas and Alabang,
aba, paMaka-Makati na ang mga loka! And Chen and I have boyfriends now, serious ones at that. But the friendship hasn't changed. We may have been more responsible now, but together, we're still the mischievous girls that we are back in high school. Playing pranks at people, and at each other, even! Laughing at funny memories, and our usual antics.
Naghihiritan pa rin kami. Chen is still our resident ate-slash-sugar mommy, ever so thoughtful. She always remembers to bring snacks for us everytime we go out, just like when we were in high school. Jai is still the wacky girl, the daredevil among us three. Our source of laughter. Everything Jai does is funny because she does it with flair and (over) confidence. And then there's me. I'd like to think that I am the rational one among us three. the very laidback, dependable girl. And I know I haven't changed towards them. Because I will always love my girls. They're like sisters that I grew up with. We're not like the typical "tabing-ilog barkada" as kups and I call them (haha, yeah, i know we're mean.), but I know I can always count on my girls. And I think we've been through a lot. Even more than those who brag about their solid friendship (na uber predictable, and boring). We talk about each other's flaws, and we laugh at each other's
katangahan, at sobrang pinagtatawanan namin kapag may nagdadrama. But we're real with each other. We tell one when she's being
gaga, martir, and all other things sensitive people might end up crying and hating us. Hay, I soo love them. Along with Ardiz, Mamaw, Jehn and even Lhena. Awwwh, I miss them
tuloy. *I had the chance to hang out and bond with Ate Mabel, my aunt from Bacolod tonight. I realized we have a lot in common. Some things that we talked about are too personal to disclose here. But rest assured, just in case relatives are reading this, WE ARE GOOD GIRLS. Just a little spoiled maybe. And I just knew I have it in my blood. Yes, she confirmed the hearsay that we are a family of jealous people. We are so passionate when it comes to the people we love.
Kaya selosa talaga kami. Because we're very loyal. And here's a toast to us, for our frustrations on relationships and our hopes for a happy future with the people we love.
***okay, this entry is getting so long na, and I have to sleep early pa for tomorrow. And I'm just so sleepy I might just doze off any minute now. Til next tym, sweetie. Byers.
another adventure for COSMOGIRL!
