Monday, September 11, 2006
twenty-one...
Gosh, four years from now, I would be 25, and I've always looked at 25-year olds as mature people. It's when they're old enough to make wise decisions, and when you make the wrong ones, you can't get your way out by claiming that you're just a kid. It's scary, the thought of it makes me cringe, and I'm four years closer to that.
I don't know why I suddenly felt nervous, maybe because I have made a lot of wrong decisions in my life. But hey, I made great ones too... and those are the ones that count. But I'm just so afraid to be responsible for my decisions yet. But hey, things wouldn't really change much. I just have to take account of whatever choice I make. My parents and trusted friends will still be around to guide me in making the right choices.
Or, it could be the age. Looking at all those fabulous, successful young women in magazines, made me think that I'm quite late in getting to the Successful Women Arena. I'm 21 already, and I'm still depending on my parents, with no significant achievement to date. It's depressing when you look at it that way.
But hey, now that I'm 21 and therefore qualified as an adult, I have to stop whining like a little girl. I have to take charge. Deal with whatever it is that life throws at me and throw it back at them. I have to start taking life a little more seriously, like at work. Because at 25, I want to be this successful career media woman, who has made a name for herself, and not just some media lord's daughter.
There are some aspects in my life though, that are non-negotiable, and I would not allow to change (or if they would, into better). Like close family ties, my growing relationship and unfaltering love for my boyfriend, my bond with my close friends, my service to my community, and my faith in my God. These things will I never, ever let go of.
Wow, deep-girl material, don't you think?
My birthday was, a little different from before. My family and I didn't celebrate it in a nice resto, because my parents and sister were away. But hey, I still had a blast, in the kitchen, that is! With the help of Ate Celyn and Big Momma (our helpers), I managed to whip up an incredible dinner for my guests: my brothers and their girlfriends, and my cousins with their visitors, pajong, kups and my babe. I cooked Seafood Pasta and cheese-pesto garlic toast, the helpers made barbecue, and I perfected my recipe of Blueberry Cheesecake! I have been trying to make the perfect cheesecake ever since I developed an interest in baking.
It was a rather grown-up way to celebrate my birthday. I cooked for my peeps, like I spent almost half of the day coming up with a menu, buying ingredients at the supermarket, and whipping up a feast in the kitchen. None of those waiting for gifts, ranting when people came late, with no surprises, none of that. I'm just happy I showed off my cooking skills, and they loved my cheesecake. Hey, that's an achievement!
Well, there was nothing grand about my birthday, but at least I got a card from my babe, and he stayed up late to be the first one to greet me, and that made it really special because he's been so busy lately, and he never sleeps late. Like if it's already ten o'clock, he'll be so sleepy na. But he waited for the eve of the twelfth to be the first one to greet me. Ain't that sweet? And the message of the card pretty much made up for him showing up late at my dinner. Hey, I love him, so as long as he's with me, everything else doesn't matter much.
Okay, getting a Bridget Jones-y again...
Current Weight Loss (in pounds) - still not ready to answer that! Hmp!I was actually mortified, when I went for my medical check-up and the nurse noted my weight. I gained weight again! Hmp! I have been dieting for a week! Ugh, it's just so depressing and discouraging. But hey, I have to be optimistic about this. The more reason I should be getting my mind set on dieting. So I'm not getting near any weighing scale again until I'm certain I've lost some pounds. On one of my window-shopping trips, I saw some really nice swimsuits, and they're not overly priced. More motivations, that's good. In fact, I'm getting used to not eating rice and drinking more water lately. Borabora, watch out, you're gonna see me when I'm a babe!
Current Career Status: Getting ready for a fab career!Yeah, finally I accepted a job in a broadcasting network, where I will be writing. It's pretty neat actually. It's kinda glamorous and very challenging, but I'd still be able to maintain a low-profile, plus I can dress however I like. The salary is...okay, pretty much acceptable. I'm actually getting my mind set on this also, because, DIZZIZIT. A real career in media. My chance to prove to people that I am actually skilled and fit enough to be in the Successful Career Women arena. And to make my parents proud. If I do well on this, I'm insured of a nice and bright future. I can't afford to mess this up. So I'm really gonna give my best on this one. I'm actually studying the job as early as now. I can't wait to get started.
Currently Reading: Successful Public Relations - The Insider's Way to Get Successful Media Coverage by Jim DunnOkay, so this is a new classification. I just thought that if I put this here, I would be obliged to read and maintain a bookish attitude. I just finished
"How to Find Your One True Love" by Bo Sanchez, and let me tell you, that book is really useful. I would recommend it to single friends. Bo never fails to make sense, be blunt and still be friendly and caring about whatever he's trying to make us realize. About one true love (OTL)? I just realized that true love is different with romantic love. It's making a decision, it's making a choice. The thing is, it's not true that there is only one person out there for you. God's plan is waay more complex and incredible than just one person. He gave you a whole world of choices, a world full of young men capable of being OTL material and a brain to use in picking the right one, to choose the right person. It sounds so unromantic, but when you think about it, he does make sense. As for me, I believe I have my one true love. Because God paved the way for us, in a world full of other good young men and possibilities, but I chose him. And I chose to love him. So I'm always praying for this true love to stand the test of time...
Oh, yeah, I'm currently reading this Public Relations book, to prep myself for one heck of a fabulous and exciting job.
Oh, and I would be going to the mall later with my homegirls, so I better get myself ready because one of my birthday resolutions (yes, i have such thing) is to stop going out of the house looking so sloppy, I always have to look polished and put-together. It doesn't matter if I'm not wearing expensive, designer clothes, I just have to wear it like it's worth a thousand bucks. My mindset on drab to fab!
So...ttyl, i have to go take a long bath and afterwards catch up on my reading. Ciao!
another adventure for COSMOGIRL!
