Sunday, May 07, 2006
grabe, i've had a roller-coaster weekend again...
You know what, I already got a call from that company, the one where i didn't take the final interview seriously, and I dunno. I missed the call. I just saw their name on my call history list, well, I guess that's a sign.
Anyways, I'm firm in believing that my dream job will come soon. In a week's time maybe? I'm not waiting for phone calls anymore. I'm just waiting for God's Call.
And I need this week. I know I do.
Warning: Senti ZoneRemember the dream I told you about? I just grew so paranoid about my babe's safety that I didn't realize I was hurting him, and myself in the process. I can't believe I've turned out to be this person who would hold on too tightly to someone. I've always been this lax person, anything goes with me, but then I realized that indeed, I've become so different towards him. And you know what happens when you hold on too tight. You suffocate the person, you kill him...inside. And I would never want that to happen. We patched things up though, sobrang blessed ko lang na mahal ako sobra ng taong yun. But I know I need to let go of him, not in that way, pero I have to learn to entrust him to God again. I know how I want to take care of him, make sure he's always safe, but at the end of the day, all I can really do is pray, because only God can take best care of him for me... and I need to be independent of him too. Guess I just have to let things take it's course, and just pray and believe that God has my desires in mind.
Okay, so I'll be away for sometime, for the SHOUT week, the female clusterheads will all be staying in one house, to get the feel of going on a mission work raw. I'll be coming home lang to check my emails and stuff. But I'll be spending five to six nights there. I don't have any expectations for this, I just want to chill and be at peace with myself. I expect myself though to get to know the people there, this is my last year in YFC. And I want to give and be my best for it. Okay okay, I have to go pack now, and bake siguro para naman good shot. See you soon! I'll tell you about it when I come back. Tata!
another adventure for COSMOGIRL!
