Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Oh yeah, I'm back!
Had a good weekend, tae, my cousin and homegirl, is here na, so it's always so noisy here at home, we're always talking about her boys (yep, the nerves of this girl, haha!), her true love, and just funny things we can't help but laugh about. I'm so glad she's gonna be living here from now on, coz she'll be studying college here in manila. I'm so excited for her! And I know we're gonna spend a lot of time, me, her and kaye and some of our friends, together, just hanging around, and I bet it's gonna be fun. Just a few reasons to make me smile :)
The discovery camp was very successful. (Read edz, joyce and kaye's blog for more kwento about it) I'm very happy because a lot, if not all of them were really touched, and they found the theme (YFC Big Brother) cool. Just reading their stories make me smile. I also chatted with some peeps who attended, and they said they were really touched. In fact, the place was flooding with tears (including me, my sharing part later) during the commitment part. All the hardwork and preparations paid off. This is a shout-out to my co-service team who made this possible: Good work guys! Kuya Pau, Ate Charms, Ate Cai, Partner, Koks, titos and titas,
ang luffeet talaga! Of course, all for the glory of God, who is our Big Brother, and who was the prime mover of all these things, we are merely His instruments. It's a great way to kickoff our cluster's activities for the summer. Camp and praisefests in store for the following weekends of May and June. I'll be very busy, and that helps ease my anxiety about my future. Anyways, I'm still holding on, with the dream job? Maybe... With God's plan for my career, definitely!
Okay, yes, I got into mushy mode during the fourth talk and shared about my lovelife. How my prayers and God centered my relationship with my babe. And as I told Jo last night, I really didn't know what got into me, the moment I started with my sharing, tear flowed. Haay naku... anyways, it really felt good to share that part of my life with them, hope I inspired them to wait and pray for their lovelives too. Anyways, the funny part is, when my sharing ended, my boyfriend came up to me and hugged me really tight. Awwh... it was the best feeling ever. After that, the night's culminating activity was prom-ish, because the boys were to give a token to the girls (a necklace with a heart pendant, which I made, ehem! =P) and ask them to dance. Of course, my babe gave the necklace to me, and we slow-danced, under the stars. It's a first, and I'm sooo kilig. I know they could see through me that I was really happy. Then the next day, during the commitment part, babe and I talked about something, and what he promised me really made me cry. Awwh... and it's something I will never forget, and something that I will always come back to, when sad moments come our way.
Moments like, i dunno...this?
Well, maybe I'm just being a brat, because it's May 3. You figure that out. I guess I'm just missing those times when I get flowers, or surprises every third of the month. And when we make it a point to celebrate it, even in little ways, even without money. He greeted me naman a while ago and yeah, it's the thought that counts, but is the thought really there? Or he just said it because he knows that I want him to? Quoting ate cai,
"Mahal mo pa ba talaga ko tulad ng dati?" or like what Samboy said in his sharing, that men tend to become so complacent, when they know that their girlfriends love them very much, is it like that? Haay, why did I even share it here, eh it's too late to erase it. Anyways, like I said a while ago, our moment during the commitment part, I knew it was real, more than what I'm feeling right now, I know that what he said to me is the real thing, and I'm just gonna have to hold on to that. And like what ate cai said in her blog, what's important is that we still care for each other and we still love each other, with or without the sweetness.
Okay, this post is getting too long again, til next time na lang, i really hate to end this one in a sad note, but like I testified, prayers are my armours to these unworthy feelings. I'm going to church later, like we used to do on our monthsary. I know after I do, I'll feel better. So tata for now, watch out for my next kwento.
another adventure for COSMOGIRL!
